There was apparently a tornado near where I live the other night. We only got a few thunderstorms, but I feel like the tornado landed right on my heart.
I feel as though I'm spinning and so much is going on around me and all I want to do is just be.
I want to be happy. And I want to be with him. Because he is my best friend. He is the best friend I have ever have and has proven that to me time and time again.
The bottom line is that things fuck up. And shit happens. And people make mistakes.
But how you cope with the mistakes you make and the steps you take to fix them is what, I think, matters the most.
It's funny how when disaster strikes, you find out who the people you need in your life really are. The only ones holding me together are the ones listening to me and understanding my decision and assuring me that I am going to be okay and that this is not the end of the world and that time is going to pass and things will be good again.
I don't want this blog to be depressing and sad and embarrassing when I look back on it in a few years, but I don't have an active journal anymore so this will have to do.
I just want these spinning thoughts out of my head. I want to forgive, forget, and move on.
And I want to go to the lake. I miss going to the lake. I like the lake.
And I like disc golf.
And I really like hanging out with Katie, Joe, and Brandon.
And I like Cheerwine.
And oil paint.
And hearing the birds chirping every morning as it gets warmer out.
And swinging out on the playground as soon as the sun goes down.
And hearing Lonnie's voice over the phone late at night.
And helping Emily make a list of reasons to stay alive.
And making summer plans with Samm.
And finding ways to be happy after a tornado.
P.S. Apparently there are bigger things going on in the world than my relationship. Weird.
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